So after all that has been going on, times have been so crazy recently. Its all God, fun, sad, hard, and lovely. Crazy to think that all of those things can be part of a good life. There have been time of struggle with trusting what God has for my life. After going to a retreat in June my life has taken a turn for the better. Im learning a lot about myself, sisters (small group), and my relationship to God. There are so many ups and downs.
I recently found out that my Aunt who has been battling cancer for the last 4 years is starting to slide downhill. It was really difficult for me to hear that being that I am in Hawaii and my entire family is in Dallas. My first reaction was anger and pure sadness. My mind went straight to looking at the negative and worst possible outcome...death. There has been a huge presence of death in my life since I was a teenager in the 8th grade. Thanks to the support of my friends in my small group at church they were able to keep me accountable and help me through my tough time. After several days of constant prayers and on and off crying God confirmed for me that I needed to go visit my family. A plane ticket to Dallas was $1100, how was I supposed to pay for that on a college students salary. My friends offered to help me out if I needed, but I just didnt feel it was right. I eventually submitted and gave the situation to God so he could do what he wanted with it. Thanks to his loving and caring hand he blessed me with a free ticket through my other aunt who works for American Airlines.
There is a wall up in my mind right now, the creative juices arent flowing and i feel as though i am rambling so we shall just end it at that.
Ecclesiastes 4:12 "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
This verse has constantly been popping up for me. Let your self be vulnerable and transparent to those around you that you trust. Allow and ask them to keep you accountable.
Much mahalos for reading
From the mouth of my grandfather
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